Tuesday, March 3, 2009

And the Job Market Can Suck It

I recently lost my job - like so many others these days - and it kind of sucks.

Don't get me wrong, the days that I feel the freedom to embrace my jobless life are beautiful. I go to the beach, I paint, I meet friends for lunch or coffee (and they pay!), I read all day; it's like being on vacation in my own city.

And then I pay my bills and commence freaking out. The freak outs also happen on a weekly basis when I'm looking for employment. I quickly realized that it is not in the best interest of my emotional/mental state to look for a job everyday. That, my friends, is how people spiral into depression. Instead, I look once a week. The same day every week and on average, I apply for 1-2 jobs during that time. What's really sad is I'm not even being picky. At first I was like, "I'm not taking some bullshit entry level job. I have my masters, bitches." And then I saw what was out there and I was like, "janitorial work, here I come." But there aren't even janitorial positions open. Fuck.

I guess the good news is that I've had time to really invest in my new blog. But as you can see, I only have 2 followers.. I guess that's not really paying off either. But you should definitely go check out the blogs of my 2 followers - they're great writers and they're hot. Well, I don't know if they're hot, but in my imagination they are totally do-able. (Hot #1, Hot #2)

I'm starting to think of all the things I can sell - books, clothes, my cat, that treadmill that's been collecting dust in my garage for, like, 2 years. But then I remember no one is really buying things because they all just got laid off too. Fuckity fuck.

I'm really hoping something pans out soon because I don't know how much more of this I can take. Having my days completely free would be much nicer if I was independently wealthy (which includes the option of having a sugar daddy), but I'm not. Each day that passes pushes me closer and closer to the poverty line.

Even though this season of my life is less than desirable, I have learned many valuable things - like how to scrimp and save, what things are really important in my life, and how much money I just threw away when I had it. Maybe a lot of people say this when they're down and out, but I really hope that when (if?) I get a job I continue to choose to help others. Regardless of circumstance, we need each other and I think it's easy to forget that when times are "good."

So I guess on that note, I'd like to challenge you (all two of you!) to give back if you can. And no, I don't mean send me a check .. though that would be nice .. but if you have a consistent income and can spare even $10 a month that would be helpful to someone who is going through a difficult time. Or it would be helpful to a nonprofit that is working to help those in need.

Anyhow, that's my rant for the day. May we always meet each other with compassion and love.


  1. Found you via 20SB. Thanks for adding me!

    There are so many ways to start that spiral into depression, but I don't think you're on your way down. Sounds like you're keeping things in perspective.

    I'll pray for your independent wealth, and we'll see what you get!

    I'm sure you will get a job offer soon enough. You're obviously intelligent, and you're out there searching. That's the key.

    I work for a nonprofit, and I agree. Every little bit counts. ^__^

  2. But you didn't invite me. I invited you. There's a comment on my 20sb page to prove it.

    I'm unsure why you chose to comment on my blog. Perhaps because you think it's silly like most people would.

    I don't have a job either, but I live with my parents. I'm trying to work out a deal with God to keep me alive. He's not being very forthcoming though.

  3. I agree with Heather. Your intelligence comes through in your writing, and intelligent people are forever in short supply. You'll find work soon. Till then, I think you have the right attitude about it.

    And, thank you. Our imaginations should get together sometime. :)